I tweeted this earlier:
Most of the time, the right thing to do is also the most difficult. If you want the best results, you have to do the hard things.
I believe that statement, but it sounds a bit like a pat answer. I’ve done what I truly believed were the right things, but I never saw the results I thought I should see. And it would be easy for me to give up on doing the right things if they aren’t paying off.
Trusting God isn’t easy. It’s downright frustrating most of the time. I don’t see what he sees, I don’t know what he knows, and most of the time I can’t wrap my mind around what he’s trying to do.
And so I wrestle with what I see around me, in spite of the decisions I’ve made and the actions I’ve taken that I knew in my heart were the right things at the time. Because what I see is not what I expected.
I don’t really know where this path is taking me. I can’t predict the future. I can’t see where this ends up.
But, still I believe. I follow the guidance I get. I keep doing the difficult things, blindly moving toward an unknown destination. God’s idea of best for me, isn’t mine.
My “best” is littered with lofty ideals about what will make me happy, what will provide the things I want. But He knows what I need. He knows what He wants to make of me.
So sometimes those difficult things lead to even more difficult things. I reach the top of one ledge to see an even higher ledge in front of me. I’m weary of climbing sometimes, but walking the path He gives me, climbing the mountain He puts in front of me, He gives me strength. In the middle of frustration, he provides me peace. In the middle of my perceived lack, he gives me contentment. And I’m walking through a fire that will not burn me, but it will loose my bonds. I’m surrounded by heaviness, but somehow I feel lighter.
And I have to surrender. I can’t wrestle with Him and fight through my circumstances too. He’s not the one who is against me. I need to have him with me to face what’s ahead.
And so when he nudges me toward a path that seems insurmountable, I move, and he moves with me. We’re doing this together.
And that is what is best.